Is there a step up?

In 1999, I was bicycle riding in Bloomington, MN with my children. Drew was 7 and Jenna, 6. We were cruising down a big hill, and I wiped out. I obtain a Brain Injury, and this was the beginning of my long horrific story. I had a boyfriend at the time from Phoenix, AZ. He was there through all of it with me. He found places for my children to live. That was with their alcoholic Dad, Dana. Actually, I have also been alcoholic. This is part of the reason for wiping out on the hill. My housing was with Restart, Inc. in Minneapolis, MN. I was able to work at the office there as Receptionist. After years I continued drinking alcohol. The manager found this out, and I was forced to move to Two Harbors, MN. After a few years there, I was able to move to another home in Shakopee, MN. I fell down stair there, hospitalized, and had to move to St. Paul Park. In each of these homes were other BI people. They all drew me to drink. I felt that my health was growing towards normality. But, my habit with Alcohol just got worse, because of my frustration with life. So much for my normality. In my opinion, my BI made me want to drink. I realize that this is nonsense. My children were aging. Their father was killed by Police because he took a gun out after them. My children were leading such devastating lives due to their parents. My son, Drew went into the Marine Corp. My daughter, Jenna now works for a Brain Injured institute called "Everyday Living". I really feel badly about the way I did not raise them. But, I am forever proud to be their Mom. My boyfriend, Brian is still with us. He loves us all dearly, and we are so fortunate to have him. He still lives in AZ, and visits us on a monthly basis. My son, Drew lives in Philadelphia. Jenna lives in Big Lake, MN. She is now due with my first Grandchild.